Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

I should be sleeping right now, but I can't. I really... really hate being stressed out over nothing. Because I can't sleep because I feel really lonely for no reason and oddly down when I should be happy. When I do fall asleep I don't want to get out of bad and I'm nowhere near motivated to do so. When I think about all of it, I'm fairly certain I'm depressed, which is a load of crap because I have no reason to be.

I don't want to be depressed for no reason other than I have to move out of the house for a semester. It's... dumb. I know I'll be fine, I'll get used to it and I'll probably have some amount of fun. But I can;t stop freaking out about it, it's all I can think about and realizing that I have to grow up makes me sick.

I'm so damn good at giving advice about this crap but I can't even help myself. I don't know how I can tell people they need to realize they're adults but I'm still clinging to my parents and my family like I'm 10. I'm a hypocrite. I want to be as level-headed as I sometimes come across.

I don't want to act this way or feel this way or be this way. I can easily name infinite number of people who have it worse, so I'm just being dumb. Meeeeh.

I want a hug. I want to stop feeling this way. I want a hug so bad right now. Really wish I had someone to talk to.

Edit: Wow.... yea. That is the last time I write something at 5am in the morning when I'm feeling crappy. X___x' Ignore this plzkthx

Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Ugh, finals is here. But I finished my only paper!!! YES!! -throws confetti- Tomorrow I have my in class history essay, and then after that it be my simply 50 multiple choice essay for Environmental Science~ then I is DONE.

Can't wait ;.;

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Anyway, here's a tag stolen from
You know you wants to feel it out :3 because you all love me.

WOULD YOU:

1. give me your number?
2. let me hug you anytime I wanted to?
3. let me kiss you?
4. watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
5. let me take you out to dinner?
6. drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. take a shower with me?
8. have a fling with me?
9. listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
10. buy me a drink if i didn't have money?
11. take me home for the night?
12. let me sleep in your bed?
13. sing karaoke w/ me?
14. sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
15. re-post this for me to answer your questions?
16. come pick me up at 3am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
17. Do you think i'm cute or hot?
18. Do you like my style?
19. Do you think I'm funny?
20. cry if I died?
21. dance with me?
22. sing happy birthday to me?
23. take advantage of me if I was drunk?
24. strip for me?

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Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

(Stole this from Have fun~))

I ___ you. You have a nice ______. You make me _______. You should _______. Someday I will ______. You + me = ________.

If I saw you now I'd __________. I want to ________ you. I would build a _______ just for you. If I could sing you any song it would be _________. We could __________ under the stars. If I could take you anywhere in the world with me I would take you______________.

Life without you would be like________________________. If you died tomorrow my reaction would be____________________. I filled this out most of all because_______________________. So now for my final words,
____________________________.


Love,
_______________

(P.S. ______________.)




Fill that out and post it as a comment. Thanks please, maybe? If you love me you wi

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Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

In class waiting for English to begin. Words cannot express just how much I want this semester to be OVER. Tired as well. But I had a fun weekend Had the Christmas party, Nikki got to come and is only just going home today! We were up all night while I did(n't) do my essay (I started at around 3 am >O) and yosh. It was good.

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Stolen from

1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.
4. Feel free to go ahead and add some questions yourself!!

So. . . who's doing the quiz?
Jhin: I am I suppose. ((68 Draenei Warrior))
Arianna: As am I. ((Drakgregan rider))
Zoro: I don't know why I am, I'm not YOUR character. ((One Piece [not mine]))

1. What's your favorite food?
Jhin: Mine? I like a good salad. Some bread and fruit is always welcomes too.
Arianna: I like mellow foods, a good soup is nice. Fresh bread is wonderful, especially with soup.
Zoro: Rice. Plain white rice, nothing added. That and pretty much anything that goes with alcohol. Anything.


2. Are you a virgin?
Jhin: I honestly don't see what that has to do with anything, but yes. I have more important things to worry about, like surviving, than "getting it on".
Arianna: I have not found the one for me, that I would hand something that personal too, as of yet. So no.
Zoro: None of YOUR business is it?

3. What kind of movies do you watch?
Jhin: Once again, I really do have better things to do than watch films. But if I must, I do like reality and documentaries and interesting subjects.
Arianna: Movies? I don't... believe we have those where I'm from.
Zoro: Movies? I really have better things to do. Besides, apparently I've been in a couple movies, why WATCH them?

4. Are you married?
Jhin: Not yet, don't think I ever will. To much to tie me down and too many men seem to have the WRONG impression of my attitude.
Arianna: Not yet, still waiting for someone.
Zoro: -snort- Sometimes, with the crew, I almost feel like I am. I'm not though, hell no. I have things I need to do before I even think of "getting married". Most the women I run into are psychotic anyway.

5. Have you ever gotten drunk before?
Jhin: Yes, I have. Brewfest was quite exciting. Though I'm ashamed I spent that much gold on alcohol.
Arianna: I don't drink alcohol. It's unnatural and it is damaging to the brain and the senses.
Zoro: A swordsman who allows his senses to dull because of alcohol should not be wielding a sword. I have never been drunk in my life.

6. Do you have a celebrity crush?
Jhin: Crush? No, I have better things to do with my time.
Arianna: Maybe... -taps chin- Maybe?
Zoro: Celebrity crush? Um, there's the marine girl who likes to chase me and wants to arrest me... but she just freaks me out. Looks to much like her.

7. Your embarrassing moment?
Jhin: The amount of time and money I spent in brew fest. That and the armor I keep buying is pretty... embarrassing.
Arianna: Pretty much when anyone actually happens to see me try and undress. Pulling things over the antlers is rather difficult.
Zoro: When I rushed in a prematurely challenged Mihawk. I was a fool. Either that or when I got suckered into wearing that dumb shirt that said 'mama' and had to babysit. -growl-

8. Your best friends?
Jhin: Thumboriana and Maixx or good friends. Dark and many other guildies as well. My sister of course, going beyond the pest that she is.-fond smile-
Arianna: Kael, my dragon. She's wonderful. Teft is awesome, tall as hell though. His dragon is charming as well.
Zoro: Well, there's Johnny and Yosaku. Saga is close. There is of course everyone in the crew, though sometimes I have to seriously question whether I can count that WITCH or the idiot cook 'friends'. -annoyed snort-

9. Random sayings?
Jhin: Boxen. Or 'makes small children cry'.
Arianna: So what if I'm small? Won't stop me from kicking your ass.
Zoro: -sigh- I'll never lose, I'm going to be the strongest swordsman in the world, Oni Giri, Santoryuu, ero-cook, don't touch my FOOD Luffy, and like I could lose to you. Pretty much in essence.

10. If you saw a shooting star right now, what would you wish for?
Jhin: Hm... a new sword? To get along with the Horde? For brains to be BoP.
Arianna: To live a long and happy life. I'm not picky. Though to be a little taller wouldn't be shot down either...
Zoro: Shooting star? That's stupid, I don't believe in that. Everything I could wish for I will do myself, and only by my work.

11. What is your favorite word?
Jhin: Combat.
Arianna: Drakgregon. It's odd. Funny humans.
Zoro: Sleep. Fighting. Blood?

12. What song was sung to you when you were a child as you went to sleep?
Jhin: I don't remember, I was young and my parents where killed in the crash of the Exodar when I was young.
Arianna: A druidic chant and I learned from the tribal druids of my clan. It was soft, soothing, and it was the ground, the wind, the rain, and the creatures. it was... life.
Zoro: Feh, my own business. Kuina would sometimes sing this song that I get stuck in my head every... once in a while.

13. What was the best day or moment of your life?
Jhin: When I found my sister long after the crash. Was a wonderful moment. When I finally got to the Outlands was wonderful as well.
Arianna: Discovering and finding Kael. I've never felt more complete.
Zoro: Eh... I suppose the day I lost to Kuina. The day I met her. The night we fought our last battle. The day I met Luffy, and they day I finally beat Mihawk.

14. How would you describe your voice?
Jhin: Weary, soft, but firm.
Arianna: Mellow, snarky when annoyed, not afraid to be blunt.
Zoro: Deep, low, and... Luffy says rumble-y and purr-y like a cat.

15. Who is your favorite boyfriend(s)?
Jhin: Maixx and Dark are both boys and are both friends.
Arianna: Teft and Fel, though not in the sense the question is asking maybe.
Zoro: -snort- I don't, never had, boyfriend. When I find 'love' I find love. Or whatever. It's dumb.

16. Who is your Ex-boyfriend(s)?
Jhin: I've never had one.
Arianna: Never been in that kind of relationship, so no exs.
Zoro: What do I look like? A preteen girl? -bricked by all girls- Shit!

17. Do you have any gifts from your boyfriends from your first date? Who gave them to you and what are they?
Jhin: I have never been on a date. But I have been given money for my epic mount training as well as items.
Arianna: Never been on a date. So no presents. -smiles-
Zoro: -suspicious look- I don't DO dates. They're stupid and pointless. -ducks shoe-

18. What are your views on squid?
Jhin: Squid? -makes a face- It's... a squid.
Arianna: It's a creature of the sea -dangerous look- I hope you don't mean to EAT.
Zoro: Hell of good when that dumb cook cooks it. Course I'll eat about anything to survive.

19. Who are you going to tag?
Whoever wants to do this~ Have at it.

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Everyone needs to know their personal boundry line for what they will and won't do. And if you do indeed ross that line, you had better have good friends who will pull you back over. Because sometimes we lose ourselves and can't find the line anymore.

~*~

Kudos if you know where the title of THIS journal came from. Really, I need to become a little more creative with my titles than songs I currently really like. Lawl.

Anyway! At school right now, happy that I got to sleep last night. Hehe, sleep never feels so good until after you've pulled an all nighter. Why did I do that? Because I was interested in seeing if I could do it and determined to test myself. Lawl, this idiot is never doing THAT again. That was the worst for someone who loves nothing MORE than a 10 hour nap.

Yesh, still in a One Piece craze. Doesn't help that this time around I have subbed episodes to watch. All the way to episode 327. Yup. I'm on 241 right now. WOuld be watching it if the connection wasn't crap where I am and it ALLOWED me to download them. Finally reached Water 7 and watched Ussop and now Robin "leave". I already pretty much KNOW what happens, so eh. No surprises. Though I did realize I don't know what Franky's dream was. He does have a dream right? I mean, that's like... the first thing listed on the application for the Straw Hat crew. I mean, damn, it probably comes before the 'Name' line.

I do have more pictures coming, way more. Figured I'd not just dump them all on DA at one time, but spread them out a bit. I also have a LOAD of art to post. Really. But for some reason, my scanner doesn't want to cooperate with me, so I have to figure out what is up with the shitty machine before any art gets posted up. Also need to purchase Photoshop CS or whatever it is at the school computer store. I can get it for about $50-60 because I'm a student. That way I can start coloring my pictures again. Because I really need to do that.

Need to get on WoW too. Jhin is so close to lvl 70. Hn. Then I get to work on my Mage. Guild needs a Mage for transportation purposes. That and I like Mages dammit. Fun as heck to play.

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On a more... Halloween-esque note, I took this from my good friend . She's a nut, and my answers aren't going to be anywhere near as... morbid and interesting as hers were. Hehe. I'm a boring person after all.


WARNING: This quiz is not for the easily disturbed.

{1} do you ever see garbage bags on the side of the highway and wonder if there are body parts inside?

No, whenever I see a bag on the side of the road I think of dead kittens and puppies tossed out because they weren't wanted and I wonder if maybe... maybe I could help. I do often wonder what it would be like to stumble on a body though, if that counts.

{2} if you ever got the chance to practice cannibalism, would you?

Blood makes me sick, can't stand the taste. So probably not. Maybe if it were like a... human hamburger or something... and you didn't tell me it was human.

{3} if forced to overdose on a drug, which one would you choose?

World of Warcraft. Hey, there are people out there who try to literally make a case on whether or not WoW is an addiction and harmful. Don't look at me like that. For me it would either be WoW or One Piece. Either way I'm a happy idiot sitting in front of a computer.

{4} shot or stabbed?

Er... neither really. They don't sound fun and kind of... stop me from doing art.. for a while... if I die... forever. But if I had to choose... erm. Depends on whose doing what. I'd normally say shot. It's quick and sudden.

{5} asphyxiated(gased) or exsanguinated(bleed to death)?

Both would suck. Bleeding to death would be interesting, but when you come right down to it... for both you're pretty much slipping away. Bleeding to death is more colorful though.

{6} drowned or buried alive?

Drowned.

{7} killed by blunt-force trauma to the head or crushed to death?

Blunt-force trauma...

{8} poisoned or overdosed?

... they're kind of the same. Heh. An overdose is a poisonation, just sounds less pretty. "But arsenic is poisoning". "It appears you just overdosed on arsenic."

{9} killed by a flesh-melting virus or by rats or ants slowly pecking at you?

Virus plzkthx. Yuck, getting eaten by an animal slowly. -shudder-

{10} out of all the above choices, which one do you like best?

Not dieing? Was that up there? DO I have to die? -sigh-

{11}...which is the worst way to die in your opinion?

To be forgotten. That is when you truly die.

{12} killed (by a person) intentionally, or by accident?

intentionally. I don't want someone guilt tripping because of an accident. Sucks for me to be killed, the person killing doesn't need to suffer.

{13} killed by a serial killer (for pleasure) or a hitman (for profit)?

Hitman! Serial killers can be wacko. Don't need to be raped, skinned and then left to rot.

{14} killed in a car crash or a plane crash?

Car. Flying is annoyign enough without getting sick on the way down.

{15} killed in your home or away from home?

Home would be nice. It really depends on how I die. Raped and murdered? Not at home for family to see my body. Quietly/stabbed/beaten/shot at home please. That way my family will find me quicker and they don't have to worry about me.

{16} killed in your sleep or while watching TV?

While watching One Piece, please. That way I'm happy and stuck with the image of some scene of OP in my head when I go.

{17} killed by someone who knew you, a stalker, or a complete stranger?

Stranger. I don't want to know what I would have had to do in order to get someone too hate me enough where they want to kill me.

{RANDOM...}

{18} what do you want done with your body when you die?

Jokingly, I want to be laminated and sent to the president. Really? Well, if I die before my mom, I'd like to be cremated and have my ashes made into a pot.

{19} you're forced to have your funeral at a place OTHER than a church - where would you choose?

Garbage can? What? It'd be funny to watch the family explain THAT to the neighbors.

{20} what song/s would you want played at your funeral?

"Requiem for a Dream", something by Flogging Molly, some techno hit, maybe have my brother dork around on his base guitar. Don't know.

{21} what outfit would you like to be buried in?

Cloths... nothing fancy, that would be annoying.

{22} who do you want to give your eulogy?

Nerdish: Luffy. What? He gives good meaningful speeches when he needs to. Same with Zoro.
Reality: My brother. That or Tiffany.

{23} any other specifics about your funeral you'd like to share?

Nope! Normal funerals are good for me. I'm not a NUTCASE like some people. -stares- Mosh pit? I hope you die before me so I can go to that. XD in a friendly way of course (don't die )

{24} would you rather be forgotten about when you die, or remembered but hated?

You're never truly dead if at least one person remembers you.

{25} would you rather die alone, or die loved but leave a heartbroken mate behind?

I'd rather die alone. I'd hate leaving a loved one behind like that. I'd rather suffer that than for them to.

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I am a total SAP. I'm such a pansy! Hehe

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